[No one in this conversation is having a good time. Did Akira tell Akechi what happened? WHY? She just continues to physically withdraw, looking visibly shamed.]
He... he has. Just... not over anything like that. I don't think he understood why I was upset in the first place. I... still don't think he understands. I don't care if there was, or is, something between you two. I really don't. That's not my business.
I just... feel like I've been led around on purpose. That's all.
[It's less than Akira told him, and more that Akechi put 2 + 2 together after speaking to both of them. Oops. That look on her face, though... He doesn't really want to humiliate her in the same way Phoenix unintentionally humiliated him.]
I see. As long as you don't hold a grudge against me, then what you do is none of my concern. [A small shrug, as he lets his eyes drift away.] ... But, you have encouraged me to speak clearly in the past. If you truly feel that way, I hope you will put that same advice into practice.
[Once... they figure out if they're doomed forever or not, anyway. Tomorrow's trial sure will be a thing.]
I... wish he would think. Even when he tried to apologize, it... it felt he just... blurted out what came to mind b-because he wanted me to calm down, instead of actually... [instead of a legitimate apology. It was for himself and his pride, not her. A slap across the face.
... He's an obnoxiously thoughtless guy when it comes to matters like these, isn't he? It's annoying that he expects to be forgiven after such a half-hearted apology.
[Akira, you disaster teen. Watching him screw up so miserably would be funny... if it didn't mean someone he genuinely likes get hurt. Hewwo? Please, let him go back to being an unpleasant murderer.]
...I don't think it's for lack of caring entirely, but I...
...
I... hate how much I have to wonder if many things he did and said were... intentionally placating.
[It's said almost bitterly, quiet and hurt. He kissed Akechi only to calm him down, is the excuse she remembers. How many things had he done to her under similar circumstances?
He claimed she wasn't an item, but... was this kind of treatment any better?]
[Akechi is absolutely the wrong person to have this conversation with. He offers her a gentle shrug.]
People tend to gather around him. Not just here, but in our world as well. It's always made me very curious... If you start thinking of it that way, are people drawn to him because of his true self — or because he knows the right thing to say?
[Sorry, Luna. That's not comforting at all. But Akechi is not an Akira stan, and he will not reassure her of his intents.]
It's up to you to decide how to interpret it. But, this isn't a situation where you ignore your own feelings on the matter because 6 billion lives are at stake.
... You must be joking. I saw your memory. You're dead, and so are the humans you were trapped with. What will you accomplish by returning to that godforsaken place?
... That's ridiculous. Are you so daft as to believe every single possible history will go up in flames because of your absence in this one, specific instance? Don't be so full of yourself.
Phoenix told him to stop with the emotional blackmail so many weeks ago, but he can't stop himself from blurting out—]
—Is dying the right choice for me as well? I have done nothing right, either. If it will grant peace to the people whose lives I ruined, then by that logic... Isn't death what I deserve?
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He... he has. Just... not over anything like that. I don't think he understood why I was upset in the first place. I... still don't think he understands. I don't care if there was, or is, something between you two. I really don't. That's not my business.
I just... feel like I've been led around on purpose. That's all.
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I see. As long as you don't hold a grudge against me, then what you do is none of my concern. [A small shrug, as he lets his eyes drift away.] ... But, you have encouraged me to speak clearly in the past. If you truly feel that way, I hope you will put that same advice into practice.
[Once... they figure out if they're doomed forever or not, anyway. Tomorrow's trial sure will be a thing.]
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Mmm. Maybe now isn't the best time, though.]
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... He's an obnoxiously thoughtless guy when it comes to matters like these, isn't he? It's annoying that he expects to be forgiven after such a half-hearted apology.
[Akira, you disaster teen. Watching him screw up so miserably would be funny... if it didn't mean someone he genuinely likes get hurt. Hewwo? Please, let him go back to being an unpleasant murderer.]
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...
I... hate how much I have to wonder if many things he did and said were... intentionally placating.
[It's said almost bitterly, quiet and hurt. He kissed Akechi only to calm him down, is the excuse she remembers. How many things had he done to her under similar circumstances?
He claimed she wasn't an item, but... was this kind of treatment any better?]
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People tend to gather around him. Not just here, but in our world as well. It's always made me very curious... If you start thinking of it that way, are people drawn to him because of his true self — or because he knows the right thing to say?
[Sorry, Luna. That's not comforting at all. But Akechi is not an Akira stan, and he will not reassure her of his intents.]
It's up to you to decide how to interpret it. But, this isn't a situation where you ignore your own feelings on the matter because 6 billion lives are at stake.
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very
very quiet
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...He asked me to come to Tokyo.
I... don't think I can.
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Maybe being painfully blunt wasn't such a good idea.]
Tokyo is a big city, Luna. He's not the only person there.
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Six billion are worth more than a... a selfish desire.
...
I have to go home.
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Even a wrong outcome was... necessary. If I am not present, even to die, then I'm... I'm dooming humanity.
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I... have to do something right in the end. If it could help Doctor Klim, even one I've never met, t-then... maybe dying really is the right choice.
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Phoenix told him to stop with the emotional blackmail so many weeks ago, but he can't stop himself from blurting out—]
—Is dying the right choice for me as well? I have done nothing right, either. If it will grant peace to the people whose lives I ruined, then by that logic... Isn't death what I deserve?
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Her expression tightens as she shakes her head, over and over, before burying her face in her hands.]
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Ugh.
He takes a deep breath, steadying himself, and continues speaking. His tone, at least, is less severe now.]
If it's not what I deserve, then it is not what you deserve either. Get over your guilt, follow one of us home, and live. You promised you would try.
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I told him I... I'll have an answer for that by the time this is all over. Right now, I-I...
I don't really know what I want to do anymore. I'm still so angry at him, and...
...
Enough happened while we were gone for me to... to know I shouldn't make this choice right now. I... I really, really shouldn't.