[Ah. Given what she said before, he thought she might have requested a mercy kill because something happened, but... This may actually be way worse? Don't like that.]
I... think most of us had seen or heard Reito Ayabe on Monday. He... he wasn't shy about what he wanted to do. So I told myself I needed to speak with him about it. I wanted to try and convince him otherwise.
... Yes, you and Phoenix were concerned about him that afternoon. But that doesn't account for how you lost your arm, Luna. If he didn't attack you, then how did you end up so severely injured?
I talked to him for a while, but... it was clear I couldn't get him to change his mind. So I asked him if he would kill me. He's aware of what I am... and I made the argument that it eould be better that way, instead of shedding the blood of someone living.
But he refused. He... said he would have to kill someone he didn't care about. [Her right hand tightens in the fabric of her skirt, knuckles white.] He would spare me to care for those that were left when he was done.
I thought you said you didn't want to die. You said you didn't want me to talk to you like you're an item. [Watching her carefully, not even bothering to disguise the look on his face.] So tell me why, exactly, you would do something reckless? Was everything you said a lie?
[That sure is all he gets... But it's somehow not the wrong thing to say, given the fact that it doesn't cause him to snap at her. He clenches his jaw, fingers digging into the palms of his hands — and then he exhales.]
Are you content living as a slave to your directives? [It's... a genuine question, probably. Because it's immediately followed by:] If you had the opportunity to change them, would you take it?
A robot without their Laws is just metal and plastic, Akechi. And I... already had my taste of what disobedience leads to.
Maybe a different Luna who made different choices could have better luck. But... it's all I've known. It's what I was built for. If you can't use a machine for its designated purpose, then... eventually, it becomes obsolete.
If you're too blind to see yourself as anything other than a puppet, then don't complain when you're treated like an item in turn.
[Maybe a better person would try to argue for her humanity, but... Well. Akechi isn't a better person, and he will never be one. He continues before Luna can get a chance to react:]
I... I was so angry when he told me he was going to kill others and just... just leave me behind for selfish reasons... I couldn't think. All I knew was that I had to do something.
...
A robot must protect its own existence... except when such action would conflict with the First or Second Law. To bear witness to someone willing to take a life, openly so, and to do nothing to sucessfully intervene... that is a conflict of the First Law.
I had brought a scalpel with me, in hopes that if he would attack me, he would be able to... to get it out of his system without doing any real damage. I just turned it on myself.
He said I mattered too much. So I... I mutilated myself to force him to change his mind.
[... Holy shit. That's worse. That's worse? That is so much worse than anything he imagined. He stares at her like he can't quite believe what he's hearing.]
You absolute imbecile.
[Hissed through his teeth.
There is more he could say but, haha! That's just screaming into the void, isn't it?]
If you have no plans for tonight, you do now. [Figure out what that means, Luna.] Will you do this again if things take a turn for the worst this weekend?
[She seems to realize immediately that she's no longer in a state to defend herself on that regard, though. Her mouth immediately shuts, carefully trying to consider what to say next.]
...
I'm... not allowed to kill myself simply because I might be in a state of despair, Akechi. I don't... I don't entirely know why I went as far as I did... even though the logic is sound for the sake of directives, I... I wouldn't want to do that normally...
That's part of why I don't want to be near Reito. I... I think I was effective, but... not in a good way at all.
[Yeah... That ship has, unfortunately, set sail! Akechi watches her carefully as he listens to what she has to say. It... almost feels like he's gauging her expression to determine how sincere she's being, and whatever he finds there? It apparently makes him uncomfortable enough that he clenches his jaw and looks away.
After a moment:]
Is that it? You will have to mend that bridge if you don't want it to become a problem down the line.
There are other matters I have to attend before tonight. [Time to get up from his spot on the ground, dusting his paths off.] Keep an eye on your phone. I will message you again to meet up before 11:00.
[And once again, she's leaving a conversation with him feeling like the object. But right now, given what she's just told him... maybe that was for the best.]
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She shakes her head slowly.]
Reito didn't find me. I specifically looked for him.
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And? Tell me the whole story.
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I... think most of us had seen or heard Reito Ayabe on Monday. He... he wasn't shy about what he wanted to do. So I told myself I needed to speak with him about it. I wanted to try and convince him otherwise.
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I talked to him for a while, but... it was clear I couldn't get him to change his mind. So I asked him if he would kill me. He's aware of what I am... and I made the argument that it eould be better that way, instead of shedding the blood of someone living.
But he refused. He... said he would have to kill someone he didn't care about. [Her right hand tightens in the fabric of her skirt, knuckles white.] He would spare me to care for those that were left when he was done.
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For fuck's sake.
Very, very slowly:]
I thought you said you didn't want to die. You said you didn't want me to talk to you like you're an item. [Watching her carefully, not even bothering to disguise the look on his face.] So tell me why, exactly, you would do something reckless? Was everything you said a lie?
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Everything I told you was the truth.
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Are you content living as a slave to your directives? [It's... a genuine question, probably. Because it's immediately followed by:] If you had the opportunity to change them, would you take it?
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Maybe a different Luna who made different choices could have better luck. But... it's all I've known. It's what I was built for. If you can't use a machine for its designated purpose, then... eventually, it becomes obsolete.
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If you're too blind to see yourself as anything other than a puppet, then don't complain when you're treated like an item in turn.
[Maybe a better person would try to argue for her humanity, but... Well. Akechi isn't a better person, and he will never be one. He continues before Luna can get a chance to react:]
What happened to your arm?
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... I did that to myself.
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[LUNA????]
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I... I was so angry when he told me he was going to kill others and just... just leave me behind for selfish reasons... I couldn't think. All I knew was that I had to do something.
...
A robot must protect its own existence... except when such action would conflict with the First or Second Law. To bear witness to someone willing to take a life, openly so, and to do nothing to sucessfully intervene... that is a conflict of the First Law.
I had brought a scalpel with me, in hopes that if he would attack me, he would be able to... to get it out of his system without doing any real damage. I just turned it on myself.
He said I mattered too much. So I... I mutilated myself to force him to change his mind.
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You absolute imbecile.
[Hissed through his teeth.
There is more he could say but, haha! That's just screaming into the void, isn't it?]
If you have no plans for tonight, you do now. [Figure out what that means, Luna.] Will you do this again if things take a turn for the worst this weekend?
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[She seems to realize immediately that she's no longer in a state to defend herself on that regard, though. Her mouth immediately shuts, carefully trying to consider what to say next.]
...
I'm... not allowed to kill myself simply because I might be in a state of despair, Akechi. I don't... I don't entirely know why I went as far as I did... even though the logic is sound for the sake of directives, I... I wouldn't want to do that normally...
That's part of why I don't want to be near Reito. I... I think I was effective, but... not in a good way at all.
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After a moment:]
Is that it? You will have to mend that bridge if you don't want it to become a problem down the line.
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He's... very, very emotionally volatile at the moment. I know better than to push something with someone like that now...
[And she's just. Going to intentionally glance towards Akechi.]
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He deserves that, but it still hurts.
After a pause:]
There are other matters I have to attend before tonight. [Time to get up from his spot on the ground, dusting his paths off.] Keep an eye on your phone. I will message you again to meet up before 11:00.
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[And once again, she's leaving a conversation with him feeling like the object. But right now, given what she's just told him... maybe that was for the best.]
O...okay. I'll be there.